Seek ye first.....

Wow! The Lord is so graciously yet again reminding me of my need for Him. It has been the hardest week I've had in months. But through it all, I have had to confess my selfishness in feeling like I needed sleep more than I needed time with my Savior. Why do I allow Satan to fool me in this way? I discover that I can't be effective at anything when I'm lacking in my quiet time. My husband has really needed me to be his helpmeet lately, and I feel that I have failed him so miserably. My students have not had their typically organized and "I-have-it-all-together" Mrs. Rachel in really two months. I keep blaming it on everything - new babies, sick boys, SO MANY DEMANDS ON MY DAY! - but truly, the heart of the matter is, well, my heart. My heart has not been yearning toward Jesus Christ and His Word. "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and ALL these things shall be added unto you." What alot I still have to learn. {sigh}
I hear my husband on the phone right now talking to our associate pastor about how he's been really praying for God to move in our church plant and how it's interesting that the Lord's shaken us up some. In ways that would seem to be negative. We've both just been emotionally exhausted. But I truly believe that God is simply drawing us closer to Himself and reminding us that we can only rely on His strength not our own. My goodness, do we mess things up when we try to do things within our own strength. I am so thankful for the Lord's mercy toward us and how He continues to reach out to us and give us gentle reminders of our need for Him.
Please be praying for our family and our church as we desire to become more like Christ every day. And pray that the Lord would continue to bar Satan and his distractions as we move forward.