My Family

My Family
Jeremy, Rachel, Isaac and Noah
My name is Rachel Lane and I am a young mom and pastor's wife. I have just recently started this journey as a pastor's wife and it has been an out-of-my-comfort-zone learning experience to say the least. Proverbs 31 describes the wife of character of worth "far more than rubies." This blog is a diary of my journey as a wife and mother. God's Word tells us that our life is like a race, ever sprinting for that good and faithful finish. So I invite you to join in cheering me on this challenging race. You'll see me fall and stumble, but with God's grace I continue to Race For Rubies.


Saturday, April 23, 2011

Overwhelmed!!!

There is so much going on in my life right now that I often am pressed with overwhelming feelings of failure. The day-to-day busyness of teaching and caring for all the little ones in my in-home preschool tends to keep my mind preoccupied and worry free. But then the evening comes, and all my kids go home. It's then that I see two little boys who are needing one-on-one time with Mama and Daddy. I see the pile of dirty dishes from our meals and snacks that day, the laundry hamper overflowing with our personal clothes, baby bibs and burp cloths, as well as towels and washrags used to clean up all types of bodily fluids. My family is hungry and wanting a hot, home-cooked meal on the table. I need to go walking - I've just started training for the 3 day Komen Walk for the Cure, I need to get curriculum and crafts ready for the next day of school, there are church matters that need to be organized and handled. I would LOVE to spend some quiet time with my husband, but he has sermons to prepare and outreach opportunities to set up, and a congregation to shepherd. Unfortunately, I just can't do it all. I know it could be better.
Right now I have two full-time and three part-time students. (Plus my two boys) Their ages are 3 months, 8 months, 10 months, 1 1/2 years, two 2 year olds and 4 years. Once upon a time, all my kids napped at the same time and that gave me 1-2 hours in which I could take care of other responsibilities. This is no longer the case! So from 7:15a.m. to 5:45 my time is not my own. :) Trying to cram all of that other "stuff" into 4 hours in the evening is just not working for me. I'm dropping a lot of balls lately trying to juggle them all.

I know what I need to do. I need to sit down and write out a detailed schedule of my day, my week, and make deliberate decisions on when I should do what. Obviously, flying by the seat of my pants isn't very effective. But when am I going to find the time to sit down and work out this master schedule? *sigh* I'll just have to fit it in somewhere, because I am so tired of feeling discouraged and defeated by my hectic days. I need to determine the "absolutely, without option, must happen" responsibilities from those that are "no one will suffer an agonizing and painful death if it doesn't happen every day" responsibilities.
Hmmmmm.....there's a lot to think about for this upcoming week. I'll let you know how it goes. I think my verse for this week will be Psalm 28:7. "The Lord is my Strength and my impenetrable Shield; my heart trusts in, relies on, and confidently leans on Him, and I am helped; therefore my heart greatly rejoices, and with my song will I praise Him." -taken from the Amplified Bible.

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